not sure

How do you make sure things are going to pan out in the end? How do you exactly know? THings dont seem set at times but i've found that you can never be sure about anything. Even if you think ur so sure, theres nothing supporting you. A color could make sense to every question but logical words have no affect on the mind anymore. A motionless river waiting to flow again like it once used to. Pictures keep getting  easier to see these days, "just because im hurting doesnt mean im hurt", are very true words. Im hurting and will continue to but im not "hurt" anymore. Hard to explain eh? Hope is set into every thought these days. Hope that he will still want me one day. Hope that he still feels what i feel or even if hes thinking about me. False hope can ruin your life but lighten the spirit for a short spand. Is that fair to make yourself feel amazing then drop it like a pin? We may never know. For now i will calm down the afro, laze around, and soak things in as a wall flower would do.